Being, Becoming, and Holy Longing

From an email exchange with Karen Sella:

Karen writes:

Also, a pebble to toss into the pond of "how" our being/becoming… I often think that we are all manifesting deeper "how" already, but that we don't quite know it yet—we're living into it…

Me:

It's just as in infancy... the infant is deepening into the experience of being alive. The child is deeply embedded in the pre-personal, it is not yet able to know itself, only able to be itself.

Karen:

Like the atmospheric conditions that occur in other planes long before the rain falls, there is a shift occurring of which we may not be fully aware, that perhaps we intuit and sense from time to time. We feel it in our bones, but the sky still looks sunny and blue.

Sometimes this intuiting and sensing translates into a deep yearning—a wanting and a seeking—that simultaneously inspires "how" unfolding and also gets in its way.

Me:

It is when we grasp at the intuiting and sensing, hold it clutchingly in our hands, try and keep it still so that we may study it and know it and squeeze its wisdom into our knowledge that we get in it way. Another way of becoming intimate with the the intuiting and sensing is recognizing it as a holy longing... bringing us closer to home... inviting us into a oneness of spirit... tickling us awake... big beaming eyes of love staring at us from the edges of the crib, inviting us into this blessed experience of being alive right now!

Karen:

However (how…ever…), as folks in this region know all too well, we all get wet sooner or later, so perhaps we don't have to try so hard to "become the change" that already is—but rather, we simply have to show up and be present—attend with the fullness of being—body/heart/mind/soul/spirit—integrated being…which is sometimes not so simple, yes…and yet, inevitable…

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